Hi. 2019 already, eh? Yes, I haven’t written here since last year. I don’t know what to write anymore and it’s been like that for months. I spend a lot of time on Twitter, and I see a lot of topics there I could write about, but really I don’t know anymore than you or anyone else; I just have opinions, and we know about opinions. If I thought I was going to reach people whose minds were open to change, it might be worth it, but we’re all in silos and I’ll either reach people who are in my silo (who will nod and smile, which is nice, don’t get me wrong) or they’ll lob hand grenades from their silos. I don’t like hand grenades. They either hurt me or make me haul out a rocket launcher, figuratively speaking. Then everyone gets hurt, me included.
I am as poor at writing personal messages as I am at writing blog posts. I “owe” three decent replies to people who wrote me very good messages. They’d probably let me off the hook because hey, they didn’t write to make me feel bad, but I still feel bad that I haven’t written back yet. You know how that goes; the longer you procrastinate, the worse you feel but the harder it is to start.
Seriously, about all I’m doing when I don’t have to do adult things is logging into SecondLife, and honestly what my avatars do there are about as NSFW and possibly NSFL as can be. Really, you don’t want to know. But I go there because it beats reading one more headline about Donald Trump, or seeing some corporation PR flack issue a “green” statement that’s instantly rebutted by their employer’s actions.
I don’t know if it even matters, and here’s where I’m probably going to come off as maudlin, but this blog gets so few readers. Like, maybe one on a regular basis? I could write an email for that — oh wait, I’m not managing THAT, either. *scourge scourge scourge* here hold my whip will ya? Anyway…
I’d like to write, really. I’ve been thinking a lot about that lately. The only way to have written is to write. I just have to figure out what to write. I’ve read where blogs tend to be most successful (however that’s defined) when they pick a topic and focus on it. For the last few years, my blog has been more like a diary, which I have to think isn’t all that compelling especially as it hasn’t been updated regularly. Maybe I should focus on music? Suburban life? Even political opinion, though can’t see anyone needs more of THAT. I even have thought about writing fiction in a blog, adding chapters in individual entries.
Who knows. I’ll think of something. Maybe.
If you’re still here, thanks for reading this … mess.